- Jan9/08 02:40:28
- Edited Jan9/08 05:50:48
I suppose I might as well introduce myself first. The name's Andres. A fox from Boulder Colorado (a town known for its yearly celebrations of 420 on CU campus). I don;t consider myself much of a druggie, but I do like to think I have a very open mind. lately, I've been enjoying second hand pot smoke. so when my roomate Kezz and my other friends smoke, I have a cigarette in the same room with them. I also enjoyed a brownie on new years eve ;3
I am pretty into my spirituality sometimes, and that was my main motivation to try Salvia. I already knew it wasn;t much use as a recreational drug. but I wanted to try it for its spiritual and divine properties. now on with the account!
Xposted from my LJ.
okay. well to start out lets just say I didn't get a chance to look at the salvia before hand. so when Kezz filled the bong with pot, I thought it was Salvia. silly mistake, I know. I can be pretty naive at times. why were we smoking pot first? Kezz had the idea to use the pot ash as a filter for the salvia. I think it was a good idea. we switched to the pipe tho, after one bowl of mary with the bong.
so I felt a lil high, but not like I was under the influence of a hallucinogen. of course, soon Id find out that that was because I wasnt yet XD.
so now the real part of the story.
Kezz began to put some of the Salvia in the pipe. "you are going to want to cough, badly. you will have to resist that" he informed me.
he took the first hit, and I took the second. I held it in as long as I could. I did want to cough but I didn't. when I exhaled I inhaled again quickly as if I was short of breath. Imagine that you have just surfaced in a pool from touching the bottom.
Kezz informed me I needed to hold it in. by my second hit, I was already starting to feel the influences of it. I definitely felt a lot weirder than I did before. this time, I closed my eyes, and was actually conducting myself to hold it in longer. I think that it worked. I felt less of an urge to cough this time.
Kezz laughed at me for doing so.
I was aware of Kezz right next to me the entire time. He lay down. I looked at what was in front of me. I suppose I was expecting reality to change. I expected to see magnificent visions. I had hoped to meet at least one of my totems.
what I spoke was in my head. but it sounded to me like I was saying it aloud. everyone talks to themselves in their thoughts. sometimes when one does so, they are answered by themselves. this is all this was. but it was very clear, as if I actually was saying it aloud, not just thinking the words. it was a conversation between Myself (asking the questions, like, more closer to the conscious me) and Otherme (a deeper level of thought that seemed to understand more and could answer my questions).
"Nothing is happening" Myself noted. but there was a change. I felt different. the room was definitely there. but when I closed my eyes, the memory of the room would shift. Kezz's chair in front of me became wavy, and skewed, but when I reopened my eyes, it wouldn't be. it was right where it was supposed to be.
"try closing your eyes and keeping them shut" Otherme advised
I did so. it hard to describe what I saw. basically, the world faded away. I kept opening my eyes. so the visions flashed in and out between reality and this... sky. it was a perfectly blue sky.
I was very aware of a desire to appear as a fox. I felt like an anthro fox definitely. I looked over at Kezz, strewn on the bed. I decided to lie down too.
I felt a little like Raoul Duke from Fear and Loathing as I lay down. The character is one that I identify with drugs for a very obvious reason. but more over, I felt the way I lay down was similar to him. I lay down... gracefully, and set my hand behind my head as I lay down.
when I closed my eyes, I was lying on a grass hill looking up into a cloudless deep blue sky. when my eyes were open, I was on Kezz's bed.
"I wonder if I can be a fox here." Myself said
"you're not concentrating enough" Otherme responded. "you keep opening your eyes."
"I feel like one" but I didn't look like one. my hands were behind my head. "if I sit up, I will see my hands. would I see paws or hands?"
"you would see hands" Otherme told me "and sitting back up would probably end the trip." I was aware of Kezz laying beside me and didn't want to disturb his trip. but I really thought if I sat up, and passed my hands in front of me, I would see them as paws. the want to do it was too great. so I sat up. deliberately passing my hands in front of me.
but Otherme was right. I was not concentrating enough. my eyes kept opening as I sat up. and I only saw my real hands. after that, the sound of Kezz's computer fan grounded me back to reality. I was too aware of it to visit this other reality. Then Kezz stirred, coming down from his own experience, not with visions, and conversations, but of simply seeing reality in a different light. his stirring ended all attempts I made at rejoining the other world, and seeing the blue sky, or myself as a fox. I was back. it was ended, just as Otherme had predicted.
I enjoyed it a lot. and Im confident we used the drug safely. I welcome Addy and Kiran (and anyone else) to join us to do it sometime. we bought a good deal from a head shop in Boulder, and we have more coming in the mail from online.
Salvia is NOT a recreational drug. its trips are too short for the drug to have much practicality as recreational. I find it helps one achieve a higher level of understanding or interpreting ones self or reality in general. use it for meditation or spiritual reasons, not to have a wild trip.
okay well I wanted to post about it for sake of it being worthy of posting. if I meet one of my totems in a future attempt, I will let you all know :3
upon looking at the different strengths of how one experiences salvia (thanks to sagewisdom), I figured that my experience was the fourth level "vivid"
taken from http://www.sagewisdom.org/usersguide.html
"Complex three-dimensional realistic appearing scenes occur. Sometimes voices may be heard. With eyes open, contact with consensual reality will not be entirely lost, but when you close your eyes you may forget about consensus reality and enter completely into a dreamlike scene. Shamanistic journeying to other lands--foreign or imaginary; encounters with beings (entities, spirits) or travels to other ages may occur. You may even live the life of another person. At this level you have entered the shaman's world. Or if you prefer: you are in "dream time." With eyes closed, you experience fantasies (dream like happenings with a story line to them). So long as your eyes are closed you may believe they are really occurring. This differs from the "eye candy" closed-eye imagery, of level 3"